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Back to MoreThis is my Supernatural page!!
Supernatural, or SPN, is a tv series started in 2005 about 2 brothers who go fight supernatural monster stuff (and then it escalates), it is currently my main obsession to go insane about!!
It's actually fascinating because I have never watched any tv show (unless you count Pistol or Sons of Liberty, but I watched them for the fact that they were based on the American Revolution/the band Sex Pistols, and they were also really short). SPN, on the other hand, is FIFTEEN SEASONS LONG, with 327 episodes!
I, as of September 6, 2024, have watched 126 of them since March 13, 2024, so I've been having fun.
Every single person I am friends with in *real life* is acutely aware I am obsessed, so...Tea he :)
My GUY, he is my FAVORITE, I love him :]
I very much leaned towards Dean while watching seasons 1 and 2, but season 3 Sam...I don't know, the preparation to lose Dean to Hell struck a chord with me. And then he went and drank demon blood in s4, which he was totally in the right for, actually (NO, he wasn't......but he WAS.......I have thoughts on this (TODO: elaborate)).
"Dean, all your friends are dead"
Also, Soulless Sam my beloved...he doesn't love me back, but that's okay because I think he's fascinating for it.
He's Sam with his memories and body, but without his soul, which leaves him without the ability to feel emotions, without any desire to empathize, and without a social instinct. He doesn't sleep, feels only physical sensations, and acts as he does in order to avoid pain and fatigue and experience pleasure.
He works on logic, yet the logic is that of someone stuck between two bad options, because he IS. He fakes emotion to get by, yet it's exhausting. He gets hurt hunting, yet he needs to assure he won't be put back into the cage. Dean breaks his nose, yet it's safer to hunt with him. His soul is being tortured, yet to get it back would torture his body.
When Death is about to put his soul back in Sam's body, Soulless Sam does not want it. Should emotion be felt for him when he screams at Dean, shaky, eyes wide, pleads "get away from me, don't, don't, please don't do this" in front of Death himself? Even though surely he is falsifying his display of fear? (Yet, what is fear if not a strong desire not to be hurt?)
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My GUY, he is my FAVORITE, I love him :]
DEAN, I don't think about him enough but I do love him <3
He goes through things, and he's simultaneously so determined and defeated. Shoved into, grown for his protector role. Everything inside him is all for those around him; it is his raison d'être and he does not know how to live without it. Does not even know how to live WITH it. He believes he will die young, and he will, again and again, until he finally does for the last time. But not until he hands out more parts of himself he never had, because that is his purpose, and he cannot live with nor without it.
"You rocks think you're so smart..."
He may or may not be 1/2 of the reason I started watching spn. I dressed up as him to school exactly 1 week after I started watching. (The jacket I wear to school is sort of similar to the trenchcoat he wears.) I put my name as his in games.
I mentioned to my friend that Cas wasn't my favorite (Sam <3), and they were shocked, HAHA. But no, not my favorite, but my favorite to reference. And also I'm literally him (we have slightly similar jackets that aren't actually that similar but shhh).
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I don't know why I think about him so often. He's this random dude from 5x7 who is also a 900 year old witch. He never appears ever again. He plays poker for years of people's lives, effectively kills them 25 years at a time, but...he's fair. You win? You take those years. Congratulations. In the episode, it's HIM who's wronged, really; he didn't lie to anyone. His lover did though, betrayed him, tried to let him and herself be killed rather than tell him she doesn't want to live forever anymore.
(Except for how he randomly just decided to give Sam an STD which. Huh? What motivated him to do this in particular. ???
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HE IS MY ARO GUY!! HE IS SO AROMANTIC!! TO ME!!
Absolutely INSANE headcanon probably, but hear me out......his name in my head is a silvery green type thing. Aromantic flag? :D
However, also. He tells Soulless Sam "Go ask your boyfriend [Cas]", he calls Castiel "the one in the dirty trenchcoast who's in love with you [Dean]", and his fake reason for sinking the titanic was that he didn't like the movie (which I'm pretty sure has romance as a big plot)..... The first two maybe could be seen as like...anti aro Bal, but... :( The way he said those lines had vibes. And both were in the context of "why are you asking me", why can't it be in the context of "I've seen romance be characterized as a force that makes you do anything for someone else, and Castiel does insane things for these 2". Balthazar lacks the desire to stay strongly tethered to someone, not because he's aro but because that's who he is as a person/angel, but regardless, it bleeds over into his understanding of romance as the Sole Thing that makes people do insane things for one another.
Anyways frick yeah Balthazar, frick yeah aro Balthazar. He died :( Didn't even get gibbed. He should have exploded into small pieces of gore <3
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Will make look prettier later maybe, but for now this section stores my collection of songs that remind me of spn :)
A disproportionate amount of them are vocaloid songs despite me not actually listening to vocaloid that often. I simply have a friend who sends me vocaloid songs, and SO OFTEN, they are remeniscent of spn <3
Post s3 through s4!! It is so good in the content of Sam + Dean + Ruby...What follows is a discord message I typed up at some point. May make this more comprehensible later.
When you're walking about, your body's warm with thrill: BLOOD
And you say you could run and know your sneakers pack a kick: Sam leaving for stanford earlier. Sam leaving Dean for Ruby now. Leaving hurts. ...Alternatively, Dean running from hellhounds in s3?
The blank white disk above floats, indifferent: God + the angels on Sam
So take a step: away, to kill Lilith?
A pretty number: voicemail....
An uninvited guest: Ruby, Dean's opinion
Your eyes are covered, covered: says Dean, but Sam's eyes really are
Unloved friend: Dean, "unloved" by Sam
Unwanted lover: Ruby, unwanted by Dean
You know you could destroy me any time, well, I know you never will: Ruby to Dean
You were always correct: Dean's "dictatorship"
It's one dejected, rotten world: Sam agreeing with Dean pov post Dean's taking by hell
A dark forest where wolves will hunt for joy no matter what: Sam tried to bring Dean back, failed. Hunting = blood. Also literal hunting, joy of revenge. Dark forest, Sam seen as evil.
And I'll hold you forever in rusted wire: literally everyone to Sam. Keep close but it hurts and it's old so it's always
In the glass on the floor: later in 6x22...glass also cuts, blood (demon blood)
In the shreds of your stomach, hold you forever: demon blood is in him
Last lyrics are "I know you never will [destroy me]" after a lot of repetition...Ruby speaking. Sam does stab. Eventually they turn from fem -> masc voice
Lucifer and Sam :) Primarily in the pov of Lucifer to Sam.
It is definitely very fair to put the song from the 7x1 intro into this list. HOWEVER. This song is so silly to me because I first heard it from my physics teacher playing it. And THEN I heard it from the one (1) time I played guitar hero (WHICH WAS SO FUN BY THE WAY). And THEN I heard it from 7x1 as mentioned, and I felt insane because whyyyy did I know that song......
Soulless Sam and early s6 Dean!
Sam :]
Angels, especially s4-5
Sam
Sam
VERY MUCH A SAM SONG. INSANELY SAM.
Again Sam. This is a very evident trend at this point.
Feels like a song Dean would like. To me :)
Cas Cas Cas Castiel, it is so Cas, especially s4-5